Goodbye Red_Queen

[Vendetta]

As a few of you may know, Red_Queen was recently battling a rather aggresive form of cancer. Unfortunately I was told yesterday evening that she had died due to her illness. She was 23.

She was a good friend that had an excellent sense of humour and an acerbic wit that was second to none. Since the right words seem to fail me at the moment, I'd like to share the words of Pablo Neruda, who was a favourite poet of hers and mine.

The Song of Despair
You swallowed everything, like distance.
Like the sea, like time.
In you everything sank!
It was the happy hour of assault and the kiss.
The hour of the spell that blazed like a lighthouse.
Pilot's dread, fury of a blind diver,
turbulent drunkenness of love,
in you everything sank!

Goodbye Ang, ya gypsy!


NOTE: Just a personal request, but if you're going to post in here, at least use proper grammar/spelling and don't say "she's in a better place now" or any crap like that. I can't imagine Ang would stand for it.

[UNODRAGONE]

http://www.cancer.org/docroot/DON/content/DON_0.1_Gifts_in_Honor.asp

http://www.cancer.org/docroot/DON/content/DON_0.1_Gifts_in_Memory.asp

I'd like to make a donation in her honor, if I could have her first name please?



Edit: just wanted to piggy back off of what Vendetta said. It's natural to want to give your condolences and heartfelt wishes when someone passes especially when it is one of our own. But please remember to respect the persons beliefs as well. I would like to add that any reference towards, 'may God bless her' or anything of that nature not be said to respect her and those who love her.

[Chriz]

Condolences seem trite at this point.

All I can say is that I can think of few greater crimes than dying so young.

[west]

RIP, I will miss the good times and games we played

[MetaKittie]

I didn't know RQ, but I have to say its always sadder to see someone die of cancer.
I actually had it myself and have a lot of it in my family, and I know how hard the fight really is.
RIP, RQ.
Make sure to haunt vendetta.

[greggchamberlain]

she always had something interesting to say and i did enjoy her company and presence on the board.

i wish i could have known her better and her passing is a loss to her family, friends, and to those of us here on the board who had fun debating with her and, sometimes, teasing her.

May the White walk with her, guide her and guard her on the path she now follows.

[Alleycat]

I can't believe she's gone, it's so sad. I'll miss larping with her, she could always come up with a good storyline. RIP Red_Queen.

[MorganaFang]

Man, if there is an afterlife I'm pretty sure Ang is either cracking up big time or shaking her fist. That's not me being snarky it's me actually knowing that much about her.

***

I don't deal well with mourning, or eulogizing though I know that wasn't Ang's scene either nor what she'd probably want from her ww.com pals.

So I'll play some music and go treat a barista real nice.

We'll talk about some bands and make fun of people and ourselves later, Ang. Adios.

[Wolf-Bone]

I want to say what I really feel, but the truth is, I don't really have the right to feel what I feel let alone express it. In my own way, I said goodbye to her a long time ago and even though I never actually said those words or anything remotely indicating that would be the last time I would speak to her, she knew me well enough to know that's what it meant. Because it was the last time I ever spoke to her. Though I kept holding out hope that she'd drop me an email or pop onto MSN, y'know, actually make some effort to make me a part of her life, clearly, I didn't want that bad enough. Otherwise she wouldn't have had to.

My story with Angie is the classic self-fulfilling prophecy. I told her that, as many I've fallen for in the past when it ended, it didn't matter how adamant she was that we'd still be friends. She would gradually phase me out of her life until we couldn't even be called acquaintances anymore, just as they had. And I made it happen.

But that's not actually how I feel. That's actually about the closest thing to an objective reflection on this subject there can be, as pertains to my place in it. By the way, did any of you guess that perhaps I came back to the site when I did because I heard Angie was in a bad way, and, having been in the process of starting a new chapter in my life wanted to be there when she started one of her own after surely recovering, so that perhaps me and her could start anew? No? Surprise, dipshits.

No, how I feel is, for her to be able to know how I feel or to be able to have done things differently, I wouldn't even blink before robbing any one of you of your lives. I loved her more than my own life, and part of me still does. Part of me needs to die also, once and for all, because it's the same part responsible for the childish games I (and you) play every fucking day that doom people who meet and actually get along, by pure chance, to be on-and-off fuck buddies at best instead of true, human companions.

That's how I feel. Is it right? Maybe not, but God damn it, something positive has to come out of this and, for my part, it's going to be that I'm no longer going to allow myself to treat a fucking online community like junior high. We are some grown-ass men and are too fucking old for such childish bullshit! This applies to "Real" "Life" as much as the internet. 23 is young, and many of us are substantially older. Every single day we have in this life in which we are healthy and fully functioning is a gift. We don't have a right to be alive. We are blessed with life. It's time to realize that.

[Chiron Jackal]

I miss her - she gave me a lot to think about and managed to inspire me with just her personality.

I'll remember her during the appropriate time in the Collects next time I'm at mass.

Unto them from whose eyes the veil of life hath fallen may there be granted the accomplishment of their true Wills; whether they will absorption in the Infinite, or to be united with their chosen and preferred, or to be in contemplation, or to be at peace, or to achieve the labour and heroism of incarnation on this planet or another, or in any Star, or aught else, unto them may there be granted the accomplishment of their wills; yea, the accomplishment of their wills.

[MorganaFang]

After today this thread will probably getting locked up.

In one part because we're never too keen on stuff like this being posted. But since it was a member of ww.com it is getting more leniency. A member that a few of us spent many years with and, hell, even grown up with.

The other part being that I really can't imagine Ang tolerating some of this going without her response. :p

[Vendetta]

The other part being that I really can't imagine Ang tolerating some of this going without her response. :p
I could probably make fun and roll my eyes at all of you for her.

And yeah, I mostly posted this because a core group of people knew her from waaay back, and a few of you knew she was battling cancer. Hell Ang was one of the first people I met on WW.com back, what, nearly 8 years ago. And she was one of only like 3 people I've actually met from WW.com.

[J.L.R.]

It is truly unfortunate that in a day-in-age such as this, with all the might and technology, we still can't beat Cancer at its own game. I've lost two grandparents to Cancer, and I have an aunt who is recovering from breast cancer (she's doing great), so I can relate to some of the things her family is going through. Without question it is going to be a tough road to tread for the next few months, and years...

It is a tragedy to see somebody, so special, lost so soon, but this also serves as a reminder to all of us living, as Wolf-Bone already stated, that each day we live, is a gift, no matter your beliefs, convictions, or social standing. You get one life, and that is it.

There isn't a guarantee that you will live longer than others, and if you do, you certainly have more to be thankful for.

At times we forget how valuable our lives really our. We go to work, we come home, we post, check e-mails, and coorespond with one another, some of us go to school... in short it can become routine... monotany sets in and then something like this happens.

While any death is tragic, it also serves as a wake up call that each of us is more than just avatars and texts on a message board, but we are also real human being, faults and all, each with something remarkable to treasure...