Endless Cycle of Doubts

[StarHowler]

Since I have first discovered therianthropy and went "OMG that explians me and how I feel. That -must-be-what-I-AM!!" I continuiously go through a continues never ending cycle of complete beleive to thinking Im a freakin loon to think I am anything but human. Inside or out.

I figure this is normal. I doubt myself in EVERYTHING. My mind continues to play tricks on me. I remember doing something I didnt do. I was supposed to do it and thought about doing it, but didnt do it even though I thought I did. Or Ill completely forget about something I did do. When asked if I did it, Ill say no and go to do it and WOW its done. (okay a little off topic, anyway)

So yeah, I cant even beleive my own mind with simple memory so how can I look inside myself and say Yep, Its not all human in there, some wolfish traits are lurking about. How do I know that mind is not mimicking what I think a wolf would feel, think and react?? Is it how I really am or how I want to be?

For some reason this has really been stressing me out the last few days. Perhaps its because of my boyfriend asking me what the hell therianthropy is. I havent told him what it is. or what i beleive myself to be. My dad has teased me about so much that I fear telling any one about it. Atleast anyone who's opinion matters to me.

A little advice on how to find myself is what Im looking for I guess. Something more than Meditation or Soul Searching. or atleast something a little more indepth I guess. Ive never been good a meditation. Unless you can call daydreaming meditation, Daydreaming Im a god at.

[Thoughtless]

Doubt is all healthy and natural in small amounts.

From my experience, the body can distinguish between real and false feelings. So check it up. Does being a wolf feel right? Does it feel hollow, like a plastic sheen plastered over your soul? Leave the logic mind out, it doesn't know anything about non-logical things, and go by insticts. Gut feelings. The instinctive mind always tells the truth.

And so from that I conclude - if something feels right, it is right to me personally. So what if it's an illusion? It's there, it's current, I live in the moment. It's real to me until I feel otherwise. Why worry about possibilities that might be true, but not possibly proveable? Forget about them until there's a reason to.

I hope that was of some (any) use. There's no real way to find yourself - it all happens naturally. All you can do is to observe your mind and feelings.

Good luck with it.

[DL Lycan]

Unfortunatly no matter who you talk to, you can never find Inner wisdom from an outside source.

[StarHowler]

It feels right, and honestly i dont know how else to be.

I guess the question is not is this my nature or not. I am how I am, but rather I think I am questioning therianthropy as a whole. Not just simply am I therian or not. But is therianthropy even something real or are we simply taking human thoughts and insticts and giving them a 'greater meaning'. Is there really something different between the insticts I feel and those that ever other human being is born with. Perhaps Im just simply more in touch with my primative and instictual side rather than it having anything to do at all with wolf nature.

Perhaps it relates and is similar to wolfish insticts and mannerisms, but is infact completely and totally human.

I wonder what true human nature is with out outside influence. Do we even have our own nature or is it all simply mimicked and stolen from other species,

[Thoughtless]

Well, considering it can probably never be scientifically proven, everyone has to find answers inside themselves. My previous answer applies. Believe what your insticts tell you.

Basically I'm just rehashing what DL Lycan put in one sentence.

[TheBlueWolfW.W.]

Doubt sucks. I think all Therians experience it at some time. I have always gotten over mine by looking into my past and seeing that I have alwways been this way. I'm sorry I can't help.

[StarHowler]

My doubts are starting to fade again. They come they go. I think its caused by the never ending desire of the human mind to have 'proof'.

Im sure all of us would love for their to be scientific proof of therianthropy, but would that take from the passion we have for trying to understand it? And what if they found 'proof' that it wasnt possible, would that squish our beliefs?

[Thoughtless]

And what if they found 'proof' that it wasnt possible, would that squish our beliefs?

Nope. Personal proof and insticts weigh more than scientific proof for me.