In Remembrence
06-11-2006, 10:17 AM
Hi, i'm new here and i wanted to share some of the things that have been going on with me. its difficult for me to talk about those things with my friends or family, but its easier here. I have what people see as a "mental condition". i see things, hallucanations (is that spelled right?). since a crisis i had last year i've been seeing these things once on a while. but latley something else happened. i was in a fight, and the guy i was up against was clearly better skilled than me but i manages to keep up with him. at some point blood began flowing. the blood changed something in me, i wouldn't go so far as to say it made me stronger but seeing mine as his blood just exposed a more feral side in me. at some point we both just stopped. we didn't need to say anything. eventhough we were out to hurt each other some bond was made, and he in an amazing show of trust turned his back and walken away, i did the same. and just yesterday, i was with my girlfriend, and she cut herself by accident, and immidiatly when i saw her bleed i felt this insane lust for her, i counldn't help it but grab her and, well, you get the point. i felt i was out of control, but just in control enough to stop if she asked me to. Can you think of a reason for what blood invokes in me? did anyone expirience it as well?