sabor
05-11-2008, 01:00 AM
people when i was 13 years old my father who happens to be the family veterinarian gave me a pup for my birthday
this was back in 89 anyways it was an alaskan malamute at that
anyways when it comes to saber he was at the time the only friend i had to my person
anyways as time went by i managed to notice over time time that for as loyal and for overly protective a gaurd dog saber was to me if there was one flaw he had to his person it was that he was in a word severley overly posessive of my person to the point that i couldnot even harmlessly roughhouse wit h my brother with out saber wanting to bare his fangs at him and pin him to the floor flat on his back
i was willing to lok past all that though because saber was the only frined i had at the time
anyways my dad got to studying wolves at one point over the years , this was somewhere around the time i was 18
anyways he was keeping notes on sabers overall behavior for about a good 5 6 months time or so when he eventually confided to me his thoughts on the amtter
these are his own words at the time as i recall him saying to me
saber's actions towards my person were rather less along the lines of a canine watching out for its human owner and more along the lines of a wolf protecting its mate
so far as i could tell he was being on the level with me and at the time i just did not really wnat to consider what it was he was trying to tell me
i''ll admit at the time that i loved saber as a member of the family and as a friend the thing though is that i was not actually in love with him.
me i happen to come from a rather conservative christian family and at the time i figured i was lucky my dad accepted me for being gay.
anyways on the one hand i actually understood what it was he was implying on the matter at the time when it comes to sabers unusual behavior towards my person but at the same time on the other hand i just couldn't bring myself to consider , much less explore the implied line of thought on the matter when it comes to the whole bit about curiosity and temptation in general.
anyways as saber got older over the years he managed to live his life in good health when eventually he just passed away in his sleep
so far as my father could tell he was in a rather explicable state of good health when you consider the fact that he was 18 years old at the time of his death
so far as he could tell saber had for lack of a more suitable term died of a broken heart
at that point in my life i really did not know if i wanted to live or just end my life all together
all i know is that when saber died a parto fme died with him
as for the dream itself
it was a dream that i had last night
so far as i could tell the night i had the dream was 1 year to the day that saber died
anyways during the dream i found that for some reason i was outside , it was near entirely dark outside save for the fact that their was a slight bit of moonlight coming through the thick stormclouds over head
from what little i could see of the creature i was being hunted by what appeared to be some kind of dark jet black colored wolf
eventually though as the dream played itself out i manged to get a good enough look at the wolf to realise that it was a dead ringer for saber
from there the dream played out with me simply resigning myself to my fate such as it were
as saber came to me the dream went from being wierd to being downright creepy
for some reason saber went from having the appearance of a normal alaskan malamute to having instead a semihumanised anthropomorhic werebeast like form
as for what happened from that point in the dream to the dreams end
lets just say i was thoroughly dominated and ravaged by saber when the dream ended with me waking up from the dream in a cold sweat
right now people i find myself in equal part grieving for sabers death a second time, in equal part i find myself severely questioning my sexual orientation and in equal part also find myself considering what might have been had i instead explored the so called path not taken and had not been so conflicted on the matter at the time when my father confided to me on the matter
right now i really don't know what to think on the matter
this was back in 89 anyways it was an alaskan malamute at that
anyways when it comes to saber he was at the time the only friend i had to my person
anyways as time went by i managed to notice over time time that for as loyal and for overly protective a gaurd dog saber was to me if there was one flaw he had to his person it was that he was in a word severley overly posessive of my person to the point that i couldnot even harmlessly roughhouse wit h my brother with out saber wanting to bare his fangs at him and pin him to the floor flat on his back
i was willing to lok past all that though because saber was the only frined i had at the time
anyways my dad got to studying wolves at one point over the years , this was somewhere around the time i was 18
anyways he was keeping notes on sabers overall behavior for about a good 5 6 months time or so when he eventually confided to me his thoughts on the amtter
these are his own words at the time as i recall him saying to me
saber's actions towards my person were rather less along the lines of a canine watching out for its human owner and more along the lines of a wolf protecting its mate
so far as i could tell he was being on the level with me and at the time i just did not really wnat to consider what it was he was trying to tell me
i''ll admit at the time that i loved saber as a member of the family and as a friend the thing though is that i was not actually in love with him.
me i happen to come from a rather conservative christian family and at the time i figured i was lucky my dad accepted me for being gay.
anyways on the one hand i actually understood what it was he was implying on the matter at the time when it comes to sabers unusual behavior towards my person but at the same time on the other hand i just couldn't bring myself to consider , much less explore the implied line of thought on the matter when it comes to the whole bit about curiosity and temptation in general.
anyways as saber got older over the years he managed to live his life in good health when eventually he just passed away in his sleep
so far as my father could tell he was in a rather explicable state of good health when you consider the fact that he was 18 years old at the time of his death
so far as he could tell saber had for lack of a more suitable term died of a broken heart
at that point in my life i really did not know if i wanted to live or just end my life all together
all i know is that when saber died a parto fme died with him
as for the dream itself
it was a dream that i had last night
so far as i could tell the night i had the dream was 1 year to the day that saber died
anyways during the dream i found that for some reason i was outside , it was near entirely dark outside save for the fact that their was a slight bit of moonlight coming through the thick stormclouds over head
from what little i could see of the creature i was being hunted by what appeared to be some kind of dark jet black colored wolf
eventually though as the dream played itself out i manged to get a good enough look at the wolf to realise that it was a dead ringer for saber
from there the dream played out with me simply resigning myself to my fate such as it were
as saber came to me the dream went from being wierd to being downright creepy
for some reason saber went from having the appearance of a normal alaskan malamute to having instead a semihumanised anthropomorhic werebeast like form
as for what happened from that point in the dream to the dreams end
lets just say i was thoroughly dominated and ravaged by saber when the dream ended with me waking up from the dream in a cold sweat
right now people i find myself in equal part grieving for sabers death a second time, in equal part i find myself severely questioning my sexual orientation and in equal part also find myself considering what might have been had i instead explored the so called path not taken and had not been so conflicted on the matter at the time when my father confided to me on the matter
right now i really don't know what to think on the matter