What defined you?

[lordragoon]

The questions has come up in the past: What defines your therianthropy or how do you express it? But I have a different one, that may involve the above two questions.
When and how did you discover your therianthropic aspect? Not when you found the word for it - not just knowing what therianthropy is, but when you found the animal inside yourself. Was it a dream, a mental shift, a feeling deep in your soul, obsession with an animal, words someone else said, or just some habits you had? You didn't have to know what a therian is, it didn't have to involve complex meditation or a long study.
When was the first time you felt the wolf (or other animal) I guess I'm asking for the beginning. Anybody willing to share theirs?

[Silent_Darkstalker]

"When and how did you discover your therianthropic aspect?"

when? always, born knowing it i guess.. discover? same as when.

"Was it a dream, a mental shift, a feeling deep in your soul, obsession with an animal, words someone else said, or just some habits you had?"

nothing, like the other question, just born like this. perhaps a feeling when i noticed i was "different" from the image of society, but then again i was to little to even notice soemthing like that. obsessionwith an animal? nope.. habits yeah.. but again i was too small to even know that. when i was born, i knew i was not born in the right body.. bad example i guess.. in short:

i simply was/am. i just am my therianthrope. i never discovered it, i just always knew. kind of like looking at your hand for the first time. its always been there you knew its there just never took your time to really look at it. and thats what i did when i found out the word therianthrope. i started looking more into my "feelings".

[Wolvaurynomir]

I, like Silent_Darkstalker, have had the "cougar inside" since I can remember. I don't think there was ever one discovery period, rather there were several quirks to my personality that forged a sort of comaraderie with the animal.

I think I was born with a love for animals (what girl isn't?) and cats most especially held a high place on my list of "best things on God's green earth." Of course, I did have my "horse" stage (again, I think just about every girl has one), but cats were still there in the background, maybe laughing at me for being so silly. Whenever I played "animals" in the basement (and later on the playground of the school: the beginning of my "isolation"), I was a cat nine times out of ten because I enjoyed re-enacting the fluid movements and the majesty.

Besides, if there had been a point in my life when I ultimately discovered that I was connected to animals, I don't think I would have stopped and said, "Whoa, dude, I'm a freakin' psycho because I'm such an animal geek." Which would explain why I don't remember.

[lordragoon]

I don't mean to ask when you first had the animal inside - that's up to the philosophers, and I'm not one of them. I'm not asking when you figured that you were connected or something like that. I'm asking when you first realized how it affected you and focused in on it. For Silent_darkstalker, it was finding out what a therian was that made him focus on the animal side of him. Presumably, sometime before or after, he had to realize how so many of the things he did were distinctly animal. Wolvaurynomir, for example, when did you discover that the cat part of you wasn't just another 'horse phase' or round of 'animals' - where when the game was over, the mask could be removed - but instead found that the mask was always on, on one layer or the other.

I guess I'm not saying this well, but I'm trying.

[AdamWolf]

It was one of those things that always nags in the back of your mind, an inner voice trying to make you listen to it, thats how it was for me till a few years ago I actually listened to it. Since then I have looked back over my life to see how long it had been there and after much inner debate and reasoning I determined it had always been there I just hadn't realised it. Of course since then I have taken it more seriously and after a few years I'm still here and learning more, I am still trying to learn more about myself and I will continue to explore this wolf part of me.

As I look back I can see in my life a lot of influence that the wolf had on me way before I realised it. I had always loved wolves but never really thought about any deep connection at that point. I always kept to myself a lot and didnt like large masses of people, while everyone was out playing football, I was alone off exploring the countryside, I remember one weekend I had arranged to go biking with a friend in the woods. I was really enthusiastic about it and I wanted to go everywhere and explore all the bits that no one would go into. I thought it the most normal thing in the world, however my friend was less enthusiastic about it and the sunday I ended up going by myself and having one of the best times of my life. It was things like that that made me feel really content and at home but at the time I never really thought much about about it.

Then there were the dreams, I figure my inner self was getting impatient about being ignored and it was about time it was heard. I began having dreams about wolves and some I was a wolf, but I still didnt really think any deeply about it. This went on for about a year and slowly it made its impression on me, I began to think about it bit more and I began to make an association with werewolves, I hadnt at that point even known about the word therianthropy so that was the closest word to use at the time. But I always tried to dismiss it, after all, werewolves was a daft idea, how could I even think it had anything to do with my life, but the thoughts kept coming and the dreams recurring untill one day, sat at the computor I found myself searching the internet for werewolves. I found personal sites, discussion boards and a whole new world of information. I read about others personal experinces and found a lot of similarities but never anything exactly the same. This prompted me me to search even more, learn what I could about this new realised side to me. I then began looking back at my life and saw the influences it had upon me over the years and it wasnt like looking and just saying ohh yes the wolf was there, I really thought about it and thought of other reasons why I did that, I felt I needed to justify it to myself at that point, it was still very strange to me and I was feeling mixed emotions. I spent several months just reading and doing a lot of self exploration and then I braved my first chatroom as guest, talked to others and became inspired. Since then I have learned a lot more and continue to do so, I have made a lot of really good friends and discovered a lot about myself and I still continue to do so and will be here for a long time to come no doubt.

Well, took long enough to get there but thats probably the turning point and a few of the events that led up to it for myself. Theres more but I'd end up meandering to a point all day, I think its there, you only got to ask about anything unclear. Take care, talk soon, AdamWolf.

[Amethyst]

The Coles Notes version: Never. I put a label on myself upon subscribing to an internet service, but the core belief has been with me as long as I can remember and it evolved over time.

In depth: There were no revelations for me, more of a gradual awakening. I have always been an animal person. I spent my childhood playing "wolf" and "jaguar" while my friends played house. Around the age of 10 I began to see myself as more of a canine personality than anything. I exhibited unusual behavior such as snarling in response to something that angered me, practising howling realistically, and spending all the time I could in the local forest. My parents would laughingly say that I "must have been a wolf in a past life", to which I would respond, "I am a wolf." They figured it was a joke, and still do. It's probably best that way.

I've had a longing to be surrounded by boreal forest since I was a child. I filled my living area with trees and foliage to make myself feel as comfortable as possible. I read books on wolves (every wolf-related book in all three local libraries, in fact) and came to the conclusion that my personality traits were indeed very wolfy. I have the occasional dream of running through forests on white paws, though I never remember much detail. One dream was somewhat symbolic: I picked up a mirror to look at my reflection and the face of a wolf was staring back at me. I'm not much of a believer in dream readings, but I think my subconscious was telling me something. :)

In 2001, I went online and found a community of others similar to myself who called themselves "weres". I fit the label quite well, but I still spent months reading all I could on the subject before deciding to call myself a therian. (Admittedly it was "werewolf" for a short period, but I quickly realized that it wasn't a term I wanted to use.) I still have only a vague idea of what my lupine side looks like and I'm confused as to how a soul/spirit/mental sector can have a specific representation. Self-discovery is not easy.

That's my process of awakening in a [very large] nutshell.

[GothicRogue]

Hmmm...Thats a hard one....
Well I was raised a pagan so animals and finding the inner self was something you were suppose to do, to help bring out your full self. From very early on I learned I could manipulate people, use them easily, and also I was very cunning, tricky and seductress if you will. The Jackal...The Jackal and Tiger most roam inside me. I learned the hard way what tricks and images got you. Now I am pretty...blunt and different although I havent lost my touch :D
My dreams also showed me a window inside. Often I would be in a tiger like body, and hunting, or protecting my territory. I saw through its eyes but preseived with my own mind. Strangly enough my emotions were....different. Careless but compassionate to what of my own kinder. Some times I would have dreams of being a vampire, and hunting again, but with a sleek, cunning, seducting additude about it. Mind maniuplation even in my dreams was easy. Sometimes I believe it was astral because not only could I smell, taste, and feel, the people that were either my prey, or kin were...unknown to me in this reality. The way I am is different no doubt. I am unique and very gifted. What is given to us is beauty....gifts. No images can say "hey I'm a wolf" or whatever animal you may be. Its what tallents, and actions we do, that paint the picture, and our images...additude, voice and mind bring it to life.

I'm the Jackal

[Wolvaurynomir]

Wolvaurynomir, for example, when did you discover that the cat part of you wasn't just another 'horse phase' or round of 'animals' - where when the game was over, the mask could be removed - but instead found that the mask was always on, on one layer or the other.

I suppose it was when I found out there were others out there with the same feelings. I figured if these people--many of them adults--had this thing inside them that made them closer to animals in different ways, it couldn't be just some stupid phase my inner child was still dragging around.

[Nivek]

When I was 7, I had an experiance that was dreamlike, yet I was awake. I was runing on all fours, my mind and body felt funny and there were too many smells. I woke up in my bed but something was not normal. I was naked and there was fresh mud on my sheets. I couldn't explain it to my mother, if she even remembers the incident she would still probly think that I had snuck out to go play. In a sence I did but it's rather foggy in my memory.

[GothicRogue]

*snuck into Niveks house when he was 7 and mud painted over his sheets......stripped him for the hell of it*

[lordragoon]

Thank you for demonstrating you will be impossible to beat in the post race.

[Nivek]

*snuck into Niveks house when he was 7 and mud painted over his sheets......stripped him for the hell of it*

You were just being born! :P

[GothicRogue]

It could have happened......shhhhh they dont know that!!!

*shoves Nivek into a closet*

[lordragoon]

Can we keep this sort of stuff in LARP. I'm not complaining, it's just I want to avoid a few hundred skittle shotgun shells in the butt.

[Kishi-Garou]

Wow. I'm very happy with the sites new layout. And as I can tell, seeing as I was on vacation, it changed!

I like.

I hope we start enforcing our own rules in the spirituality section again. I SHALL REIGN ONCE MORE!

I was in my first freshman year (hehe don't make fun,) I was reading the book 'Of Wolves and Men' in science class. I had a friend who always wore this damn dragon pendant. He asked me if I felt anything to wolves, and of course, I did. But it was more subtle then you all think. It wasn't relevation..al..ness . It just felt completely natural. Along with the siting of spirits that I get. It was nothing out of the ordinary for me. Especially the spirit dog. >_> We'll get into that later. If I could explain myself spiritually, it'd be like looking at Kouga from InuYasha. He's a wolf demon(spirit.) He has the traits of one. He looks almost human. Yes. I am human. :rolleyes: I also have an astral familiar, who is almost like a trait to my spirit. Kind of like two beings at once. He first came to me in a cartoon I used to draw the year before I found ww.com, a year before my dragon friend met me. I called him El Lobo. C'mon. You know where that goes.

I feel doggish, and by that I mean canine-like. I can somewhat communicate with them, but thats nothing special. You can read up in science books, and see how they communicate, and almost properly do it. I can feel what a dog is saying, if they're true to their wild heart. I met this one in Cooke City Montana, a few weeks ago, named Nala. She sang me a goodbye the morning I left. So sweet. I'll miss her.

I used to mental shift. It would come and go. Now, I'm sort of a contherianthrope. Always feeling. I can change however much I want to feel at will. And if I watch something closely, I start to feel what it is. Like a blue heron, flying. If I watched it, I could feel how it works. Damn shifty-ness.

Anyways. We're all the same. Animal, or not. We all like to have a good time, and enjoy life. Thats all that matters.

Praise Metallica, OF WOLF AND MAN! :notworthy

:buttrock: Off through the new day's mist I run
off from the new day's mist I have come
I hunt
therefore I am
harvest the land
taking of the fallen lamb

off thruogh the new day's mist I run
off from the new day'smist I have come
we shift
pulsing with the earth
company we keep
roaming the land while you sleep

shape shift nose to the wind
shape shift feeling I've been
move swift all senses clean
earth's gift back to the meaning of life

bright is the moon high in starlight
chill is the air cold as steel tonight
we shift
call of the wild
fear in your eyes
it's later than you realized

shape shift nose to the wind
shape shift feeling I've been
move swift all senses clean
earth's gift back to the meaning of life

I feel I change
back to a better day
hair stands on the back of my neck
in wildness is the preservation of the world

so seek the wolf in thyself

shape shift nose to the wind
shape shift feeling I've been
move swift all senses clean
earth's gift
back to the meaning of wolf and man

:beerchug: Nothing matters but livin'!!

[Xzengrim]

I've said it before... but if you missed it;
I first found out when I had an incredibly lucid D-shift when I was twelve. I mean, for just a moment, I believed that it could have been real! It was heavy.
I've never really felt quite human again since then. I've always acted strangely when the full moon was out, or when I was around the dark, always sensed things in an animalistic way. There was no thought involved.

[King_Parliament]

Bringing this up and looking back, I'd say it was very young, like... 6 or so. I was always obsessed with Wolves, Weres, Coyotes, ect. and thought they were the coolest damn things on earth. I would look at pictures of Wolves at book stores and I rented a shitty NES werewolf game about 4 times in a row because it had a wereWOLF. Indeed, when I was young I used to dream being a wolf (Dreamed little after I got a dreamcatcher though... wierd), and I wished I could be one more often than I care to mention. I've also shared many social traits with wolves, not to mention my reactive response and shallow exterior. I guess I've always felt it, never "realized" it until recently. I occasionaly share it with friends when they ask me stuff, but I get funny looks. They don't seem to quite understand unless they "feel" their animal inside them. Maybe if they did, they would love theirs as much as I do mine. Anybody else feel a deep love for their animal side?

Damn, I'm talking too much again.

[Kishi-Garou]

Maybe I should do a cleansing rite, to rid me of old dream catcher ties. I hate how I don't dream really anymore. about 5 times a month. BLEH! :wavey:

[Xzengrim]

My family keeps bringing me wolf stuff. They seem to understand that I like wolves way more than is normal... but they don't say anything about it. They just keep giving me stuff with wolves on it and pointing it out whenever they see it.
My sister brought me a stuffed animal, which she said was a wolf. The thing was, it was a siberian husky dog. Which is NOT a wolf. Internally, I was quite offended. I'm a WOLF dammit, not a dog. But hey, what are you going to do?

[wolvenmoonpriestess]

If I had ever been able to make a personal choice as to what I would be I probably would have never been wolf. I do have dim memories as a very small child howling and making a den out of my closest, growling etc. But time as wiped away most of these very early memories. At the age of 10 I loved horses, at that age if I could have chosen to be kin to anything it would have been a horse. I also developed a love for big cats in my early teens.. tigers, panthers, leopards... at 13 or 14 I definently would have chosen to be that if I had the choice.
The thing is that we don't have a choice, we don't choose what we are and are not going to be. I didn't not choose in my mid teens to have horses suddenly want nothing to do with me, being wolf was the last thing I would have desired.
But I was never a big cat in dreams... all I ever was was a wolf. Sounds that came from me in instances of instant were always that of a wolf. I knew when I started dreaming what was there, even though for years I was afraid of it and didn't want it, I knew exactly what it was.

wolvenmoonpriestess

[Kishi-Garou]

Actually, Xzen If you took a Coyote Pup, a Wolf Pup, a Dog Pup, and Fox kit, the only one who would grow up funny is the fox.

Heh. But, just look at it this way. Each and every canine species and subspecies is just a different culture and biological bloodline. Coyotes and wolves can mate, so can dogs and foxes. They're all the same, but still different enough to be considered a different creature. They all have different ways of doing things, but they're not all that bad. I mean, we can't hate our own Canine brethren!?

Except Chihuahuas. I hate them. They must die.

[Xzengrim]

Man, I hate dogs!!! People took wolves (the stupid and weak ones, albeit), and through breeding removed any of what was once noble or likable about them. Dogs are inferior creatures. Wolves today are the wolves that didn't take no crap ten thousand years ago... that's why they are still wolves.
I mean, I can be friendly with a nice dog, and enjoy their company... but they are scum. Wolves are great.

[Wolf-Bone]

Man, I hate dogs!!! People took wolves (the stupid and weak ones, albeit), and through breeding removed any of what was once noble or likable about them. Dogs are inferior creatures. Wolves today are the wolves that didn't take no crap ten thousand years ago... that's why they are still wolves.
I mean, I can be friendly with a nice dog, and enjoy their company... but they are scum. Wolves are great.

Man, I hate people! Guys took chicks (the stupid ones whenever possible, albeit), and through breeding removed any of what was once noble or likable about them. People are inferior creatures. Apes today are the apes that picked crap out of each others fur and ate it ten thousand years ago... I so fuckin' wish we were still them. I mean, I can be friendly with a nice human, and enjoy thier company. But it's the Neanderthal I'd wanna elect to run California! Cuz humans still suck even though we're genetically about 97% the same.

[DoubleStar3]

LOL Bone.

[SoulScream]

The questions has come up in the past: What defines your therianthropy or how do you express it? But I have a different one, that may involve the above two questions.
When and how did you discover your therianthropic aspect? Not when you found the word for it - not just knowing what therianthropy is, but when you found the animal inside yourself. Was it a dream, a mental shift, a feeling deep in your soul, obsession with an animal, words someone else said, or just some habits you had? You didn't have to know what a therian is, it didn't have to involve complex meditation or a long study.
When was the first time you felt the wolf (or other animal) I guess I'm asking for the beginning. Anybody willing to share theirs?

I didn't become "aware" of my wereness or what it was, therianthropy or any of that until I was 16. But I always was a therianthrope. Since I was a small child I can remember thinking I was a dog, wanting to have a tail to wag or be able to fly. Even things my mother told me from before I could remember. Even into my teens I would growl, howl, bark. I loved wolves. I had wolf posters and shirts and stuffed animals, figurines, blankets...I'm not a wolf though. Just to clarify. But I remember always feeling very canine, like I was connected somehow. in the 5th grade I had a theory that I was a dog reborn into a human body (yes, I believed then and still believe now in reincarnation).
And always feeling like I had wings and a tail, or at least that my body should have those things. I have always loved wings and heights and wanted to fly.

[Cape]

it's been with me as far back as i can remember. I didn't fully "realize" it until maybe 5 or 6 years ago, however. After looking back on parts of my early life that i could remember, i noticed many habits that make sense now. for example, in preschool when we were all playing "house" (another poster seems to have had the same experiance), i was always volunteering to be the family dog.

[WhiteN-OHcents]

It's really hard to say. I wasn't always like this. It's like something triggered a deep found love within my heart. Before when I was young I was like any other person. A mean selfish little brat. I'm sure I was, but I always carried that special something with me and it didn't take too long for me to realize it. I don't know what exactly it was that triggered this love, whether it be the wolf or something else, but now I feel connected to the wolf like no one else. It really began to come about as I grew into a teenager. Now as I am 18 years of age animals of all sorts are the center of my mind especially the wolf. I try to be kind to people too, but I don't understand this human world anymore. I did everything that I could to repent for any sins I made when I was younger, but being a kind gentle person isn't just to make a good reputation or get into heaven or something like that. I really grew into it and I just love giving kindness to anyone or anything that will have it. I don't know if the wolves think the same about me, but I love them. I don't know how else to express that. People reject me for trying to be such a nice person, and it's probably true that I will come in last in life with this attitude, but that doesn't stop me from trying and I do stand up for myself when I have to. I don't hardly tell anyone about what I believe in though. Most people if they knew how much I love the wolves and want to be like them would mostly likely reject me and think I was some kind of freak. I feel missing and useless though because this way I have trouble helping the world when I truelly want to and I don't know what the wolves thinks of me now. I want to be with them so much, but I don't know how to get there. The dreams and thoughts that I have are enough to convince me that I do have a wolf on the inside of me, even though my dreams aren't as vibrant as others, but I don't lie and I don't exagerate about my dreams and my life. Right now I feel lost in todays world. I believe my gaurdian angel to be the wolf of hope as I would describe him, but something is wrong right now. I think something terrible is going to happen to this world and I don't know where my guardian is right now. I believe he is off trying to prevent a tradegy from happening. I want to be with him, be like him, but all I can do now is pray. I believe in him and will continue to believe in him like I believe he believed in me. I think he knows I can take care of myself now almost being an adult. But if I am to become anything like him in my greatest dreams, I believe I'll need his help once again as well as the rest of the wolves, but I'll continue to be a good person and will try my best to earn the that dream come true.

[CrypticMaddness]

When and how did you discover your therianthropic aspect?

At a very young age, but not carrying about it, I never questioned or even danced in the curiocity of it. It didnt get in the way, it didnt stop me from living, so as a child, it became a thought that I cant even say was placed in the back of my mind.

Was it a dream, a mental shift, a feeling deep in your soul, obsession with an animal, words someone else said, or just some habits you had?

It was how I acted. It was the way my personality would 'shift' when different moods and emotions would be felt. My beasts would take control of how I acted to different situations.

I dont believe you have just one beast. I believe you can have several.

When was the first time you felt the wolf (or other animal) I guess I'm asking for the beginning.

My first animal was a lion. I felt it when I was probably 5 or 6 years old. I noticed that I would prance around like one, and whenever I played with other children, the parents or anyone around noticing, even my playmate would comment on my feline action characteristics.

I believe that our beasts change with us. Right now I'm a spider. I dont like spiders, but I've got a lot to learn from them, and the irony is the females on my mothers side are called black widows.

I dont believe on animal, or trend can define someone forever. We are always changing, and exploring ourselves. So naturally our therian's will change with us.

[Darth Cluich]

Gah! A zombie!

http://invisiblecinema.type pad.com/invisible_cinema/images/zombie.jpg

[Therianthrope]

Hi, I'm new to the site, I discovered my therian 'side' when I first realised that I was so flipped over wolves (The wolf being my Phenotype). Then I started dreaming of being a wolf and communicating with a pack of other wolves. They were the most wonderful dreams. I never knew what Therianthropy was then but I'm glad I do now because the Wolf and other animals can teach us alot.

[WareW-Believer]

Then I started dreaming of being a wolf and communicating with a pack of other wolves. They were the most wonderful dreams.
Ha! Someone else enjoys those dreams too!
....the Wolf and other animals can teach us alot.
Oh most definatly. Such as i'm very protective over my sisters. 'Cept they can't teach you how to spell......

[TheBlueWolfW.W.]

It was always here. I always felt like a canine, then I discovered the wolf. Somewhere in there the Bighorn sheep presented itself to me as well.

[Xenon Greyfire]

My period of discovery was quite gradual as well. It wasn't so much as a 'OMG I LOVE PANTHERS' period as a pure respect for them. I do like them, but they aren't my favourite animal.
There's just something so poetic about them, a sort of longing when I think of them. I believe I was a panther in one of my past lives, so it's not super strong but I do get mental shifts every now and then.
I tend to see them in dreams now and then as well, usually challenging me in some way or another.

I'm currently meditating so I can gain an understanding of my panther aspect, maybe to allow him to come through more often.

Note: I call my panther a him, while it could also be a her - I'm trying to work that out too. :/

Edit: *Low whistle* I didn't notice how old this thread was :D

[ThrasherCub]

Check next time - we're not fond of the zombie-thread. If you want to revive an old topic, make your post wonderful and full of merit. Let's see what we can do with this.

My period of discovery was quite gradual as well. It wasn't so much as a 'OMG I LOVE PANTHERS' period as a pure respect for them.
Mine was quite the same. It was never "Ooh! Coyote!" It was always "Ooh! Wolf!" or "Ooh! Eagle!" I've actually touched both (alive, and awake), but with the coyote it was something different. There was a little pen at the local wildlife museum and it contained a coyote that for one reason or another couldn't be released back into the wild. And it looked at me, and the world stopped.

It was as if God had just barged in.

I also found myself able to just get lost in a picture of a coyote. It didn't even have to be something grand and artistic - just a random snapshot of a coyote standing there.

What I find oddest though is that tokens of Coyote just kept coming to me. Find a random coyote necklace, someone randomly gives me a zoo book on coyotes, I find a coyote postcard on the sidewalk... Things that I'm still learning are coyote, like randomly finding a stone with a rune appropriate for Loki.

[Xenon Greyfire]

I'm so glad you were able to 'do something' with my post.

[Ishmael_the_wise]

It was always here. I always felt like a canine, then I discovered the wolf. Somewhere in there the Bighorn sheep presented itself to me as well. So, do you chase yourself around, or what? j/k :)

I was hiking with my brother in some woods near my house...I jumped a ditch, roaring and all, and when I landed resting on my knuckles, I could only see a large gorilla.

Especially since then (but sometimes before), I'd act like a gorilla--knuckle-walking, hooting & growling, etc.

Since I discovered the gorilla, I relate to animals different (not just my pets, whom I approach animalistically, with the gorilla) but with other animals. I'll be walking and a dog I don't know starts barking at me to make me get away from his territory--problem is, the dog will follow me down the street, barking in the same way. So I turn around, growl, beat my chest, and move towards the dog...works every time.

I'm a contherianthrope as well--my human side & my gorilla side work together to make a more complete me.

[MarieNight]

When and how did you discover your therianthropic aspect? - i always sort of knew the wolf was there. You cant not know. The day i realised that not everyone else was like me was when i was chastised for reacting to a threat in what my teachers considered an abnormal fashion. It wasnt anger, it was merely an identification of a threat and a need to simply dispose of the threat as quickly and efficiently as possible.I was ten when i realised that i wasnt exactly normal.So, i would say that it was a mental shift. As time went on and i noticed the differences more and more, i.e. personality traits, reactions to situations, etc, and embraced them. like i said though, the wolf has always been there, part of me.

[thenewbishop]

I dont know what all of the words you all are using mean but i get what you all are talking about. I had my first incounter of finding my self when I went to the zoo. we walked around looking at all the animal when i found the wolf exhibit and stoped and looked over the pond in to the woods. I could not see any thing but i stood there and just looked over the calm water and a clearing my family walked on and I stayed and just keeped looking. after a short period I saw it. a wolf had walked in to the clearing and stood in the opening looking in my direction. i did not know what to think but I just looked back at it. i felt a strange feeling, like a connection with the beautiful creature.


Three years later i was at school and had a strang feeling of death like a famly member had died. I went home and everything was fine. I decided to go to the zoo and see my favrit exhibit it was then i found out that that one of the wolves had died that day from old age.

I dont know what it all ment and i dont expect any of you to belive me but i know it was real and i realy don care if you do but i sitll put it here and well if any body can help me with it plese any help full input is welcome

[Malice]

I've always loved wolves, but over the last few years, I've become obsessed with them. I interact with all animals in a canidae fashion, and they respond to me in the proper way. For example, I can't ride horses, or even get near them, without them freaking out. My sister's hamster is scared shitless when ever it sees me, and my bird hates me. I love all canines, except those little fluffy dogs, like pomeraniens, but wolves are my favorite. Like family. I am Wolf. And Wolf is me.

[KreepingDeath]

I've always liked all sorts of animals, still do, and I've never had one of those "OMG, wolf!" periods. I actually find myself more drawn towards reptiles like snakes and lizards, and just like snakes and lizards, I tend to snap and bite people (actually happened) when I'm in a crappy mood then go and hide in my little corner of the terrarium. Maybe I'm just weird, though. After all, no ones ever heard of a weresnake, have they?

[Captain Death]

-hoping this thread isn't counted as zombie-

Weresnake? Sure. You can add any suffix to the word "were". Doesn't matter what species it is, as long as you are spiritually attached to the animal.

I've always felt something of a wolf within myself. I would never describe my physical actions as wolfish however (just because I act in a certain way when I'm angry doesn't mean I should taint the name of wolves with such bitterness). I do feel a spiritual attachment to wolves, though I have yet to explore it further, whether that be through meditation or some other means of contacting my inner self. It's a path of self-discovery I have yet to travel.

[Layira Aura]

Like countless others have said before me, it was never a "OMG WOLF! I'M A WOLF" thing. It was not even a gradual transition for me, it just happened and one day, I realized the similiarity.

I remember being totally and completely obsessed with horses when I was little, seeing as my family owned several horses and I love them. Then, as I got older, I grew out of that phase... and into something else entirely.

I always wanted to be a rebel, and the wolf appealed to me because it was so dangerous and so beautiful. It instantly made a connection to me. But it wasn't until my fateful meeting with a wolf at a wildlife preserve that I really felt my wolf side. I had always felt the canine reactions of my body, but from then on, I can remember that every time I saw wolf, I went crazy. Heck even my desktop backround is a wolf! Everything I owned had something to do with a wolf, or a wolf theme.

I began to study them, and I was into over my head, apparently. I began to even act wolf, growling at my parents or sibling when I got mad, or whimpering when I was frightened or intimidated. Some times, i would even sneak out on full moons to howl in the woods. I felt an unnatural thrill whenever I saw a wolf, and a shiver went down my spine. Even subconsciously I am a wolf, when I dream, I twitch like a wolf and whine. I sometimes feel an urge to drop down on all fours and just roam around, sticking my head into things. My body began reacting to my environment; for instance, my eyes became really sensitive to light and I could see well in the dark, or my face would twitch in a grimace without me even knowing.

I wish that I had ears and a tail, just because I could communicate much better with my fellow canines. (I even went as far as making a headband with little gray ears attached! :D )

But I felt extremely animalistic, and I can't even describe the realy feeling with really pouring my soul out.

So now that I'm done rambling.... Some one else can talk. :D

[Silvus Omoryul]

I guess, that what made me a wolf was how I felt around my friends and family. I can also say, that I got deeper into my "wolfhood" because of the whole "fur" thing. That isn't the cause of this, though.
When I was in the third grade, I felt connected then. I even scared my step brother and sister, because of how much I CHANGED on or around full moons.

I even modeled my kenjutsu form after a prowling wolf, with movements that come natural to me.
My friends even tellme that in their memories, they saw a wolf rather than me.
I love the woods, and even though I don't run anymore, I do have an added
I don't even consider myself human anymore, but that's another subject.

I howl, whimper, and even kick when I get my belly rubbed, but that's a nerve thing.

I toss the mic to the next person...